Life After Drama

So Erik isn't working right now. I have been searching for a job. Hoping I get one but also fearing what will  happen when I do. I have worked before. But not for very long and Erik was never like this. He is always sleeping or isn't feeling well. I worry for him but I don't want to baby him. He is my husband and not my child. He is my other half. The one I share everything with. Our phones got shut off because we can no longer pay the bills. I feel almost like a single mother. I don't want to have to work , then come home to clean and cook. I am not a single mother. I shouldn't feel like one. My husband isn't going to snap out of his funk until all this crap is over with. Though I am worried for him I feel I should be preparing to live a life without him. We recently found out he might have cancer. We are scheduling for a biopsy soon. With everything going on if he has cancer I can't see him fighting it. I am hoping he doesn't have it. Will let you know as soon as I know.